day 196: Glutton

I admit it: I'm a glutton for punishment. I put myself in situations where I think I want to know the answers, and once I get them, I hate the feeling of knowing. Knowing what other people may not know and knowing that I can't talk about it without hurting someone. And, I'm the kind of person who dwells {probably more than I should} on what I know. Now, I'm hurting. I've put myself in this position of knowing and hurting because I thought I could handle it, and it's beginning to affect my personal life. I feel insecure and not good enough. I'm completely despondent, and I can't make it go away.

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